Communication is so important

was feeling kind of depress last 2 day

am unhappy with bf for some stuff

seriously i do hate myself alot sometimes

i know communication is very important 

but i just can't speak out my unhappiness to him

being cold to bf , partly i was angry at myself

for wanting him know i dislike his action badly

yet i just can't speak out to him about this

can't sleep well and i decided to let him know

at first i thought bf will be very unhappy about it

and was thinking we might have a big quarrel 

as my request was kind of unnecessarily 

but luckily bf just laughed it off

i seriously think that when it come to love

everyone is selfish , or at least for me

i will prevent other girl being too close with my bf

not gonna wait till something bad happen and

realize it is too late , i'm not that kind of nice lady

who willing to share their lover with someone else

my bf is very important to me, 
as much as my family

i can be very nasty so 
don't mess with me about this